Life Lately: Finding a New Normal

I’ve put this post on hold for the longest time, but since I’m temporarily out of Instagram (also realizing how time consuming using the app is) and I just woke up from a nap (I *finally* napped—it’s one of the habits I never got to stick to because #workaholic), I thought I’d swing by here and write a little before starting the new week tomorrow.

Life lately has been weird. Suddenly the future’s been put on hold for everyone—and no one really knows what’s going to happen. I was supposed to be preparing for my move to another city this summer, but my visa’s still on hold as the embassy’s currently closed. I’ll admit that was the first concern that I encountered during the first week of the ECQ. With that in mind, I seemed to have lost hope in one of my biggest 2020 goals yet. But alas, I have no reason to complain. It’s better at this point to stay safe physically (and mentally).

With the weeks that came after, it had dawned on me that this wasn’t going to be over anytime soon. I moved back my office to my room, temporarily closed the shop (and shifted to my digital shop), tried to regularize my daily routine (happy to report this is generally still how my days look like), got into the Dalgona coffee craze (didn’t we all), and had some rough days (it happens). This is becoming the new normal for me. On weekends like today, I kill time in the mornings making breakfast for the family (today it was banana muffins!), preparing lunch (leftover pasta sauce = instant carbonara), buying turnips and reorganizing my area in Animal Crossing (lol) and reading up on new recipes to try with our current food stash.

I took a few days off work last week and I realized it was the first time I ever did that. Last summer, while I was still in Berlin, I’d multi-task with studio work and freelance during my free time. I’d sleep and think about deadlines the next day, or plan up new ideas. For a few days last week, I allowed my brain to just be blank, and dive into other things. Got back into watching films (recent fave: Tigertail by Alan Yang on Netflix) as well and finishing How I Met Your Mother. Now watching Big Bang Theory too.

And also, spending a chunk of my week playing Animal Crossing:

As funny as it sounds, I’m finding this game to be a great way to cope with how I’m feeling lately. And as much as this feels like an escape—I mean, yeah, it is—it’s nice to know I can exist in this bubble even for a few hours in a day. Also lezbereal my character is more fashionable and responsible (in catching fish, crafting DIYs, and traveling, among other things) than me IRL. Lol. [Also yes I journaled about it here]

I’ve also been keeping myself busy in the kitchen. One of my life goals now when I move abroad and have an apartment to myself (what a goal) is to have a decent kitchen setup. It doesn’t even have to be big; it just has to be a place where I can experiment and have fun. The kitchen setup here at home is quite different—I had to bring home my pans and knives from my own studio (lol), but I’m slowly getting used to it.

Some of the online resources I’ve been following for cooking ideas:

Work lately—catching up on book (or e-book) deadlines. The Updated Edition of The ABCs of Hand Lettering is in the works, and I’ve been filming regularly on my channel (my new series is up! Watch it here). New stuff and announcements will be out soon as well…which I will share more next month. Sad to have cancelled our supposed pop-up last March 28, though. I feel like I forgot about March already lol.

I’ve gotten into the regular habit of doing yoga. I started with Yoga with Adriene last March, and then on some days I join in a Zoom yoga class my cousin invited me in (which is very hard to say the least). Yesterday my good friend Chinggay hosted a yoga class too, and I took it with Mimi and Koko. I miss my friends! It’s nice to bond over stuff like this and at least see their faces, lol.

A quick backstory: I have a weird relationship with my body. I work out regularly but it wasn’t only until last year that I became more comfortable with what my body can and can’t do. I remember growing up that I wasn’t included in school dances because I wasn’t skinny enough…and getting PCOS and other body transformations (my mom even got me into an expensive diet plan a few years back which obviously, I failed at because I had become depressed) didn’t help at all. I stopped baking and cooking because I used to eat so much of what I made. Luckily since last year, my eating habits have been regulated and I no longer binge. I work out to help with my anxiety as well and to hopefully reduce my medicine intake (one year anniv in May).

Anyway, lol my body is so sore rn because I did two classes back to back yesterday. I’ll get back on the mat tomorrow.

Last but not least, collage making has been a new hobby I’ve been enjoying. I don’t know why I started doing this just recently; but I remember looking at other collage artists and saying “ah, I’m not as ~good enough~ and I might just get criticized for my work. But alas, 2020 is the year of IDGAF in terms of venturing into hobbies, and I finally downloaded collage kits at Rookie and do these collages regularly. Most of them have personal meanings; this one above is about my fear of swimming and how I feel like life lately has been diving into the unknown.

No one knows how things will turn out from here…so for now I’m wishing you all well, stay safe, and take care.

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